December 21, 2008
December 19, 2008
Today we are having our first significant snow fall. We expect about a foot by tonight. It may put a damper on plans for early tomorrow, but for now we are enjoying our "snow day". Once having been a teacher, a snow day the Friday before Christmas still maintains the special magic of a gift of home time and possibilities. I hope all the area's loved ones will arrive safely home and enjoy the lights and warmth of home, too.
December 12, 2008
November 29, 2008
November 24, 2008
November 22, 2008
November 21, 2008
November 15, 2008
Today is a dreary, November day and it is supposed to go below freezing at night for the week. I'm mourning the ending of autumn and the inevitable approach of winter. My pond fish are taking one last exploratory swim and will soon be tucked under the ice for most of the next four months. I decided to take a lesson from Carl and see what I could find to photograph in my own backyard.
POND WITH 2 KOI - STAR AND TANGO
November 12, 2008
Somewhere along the way everything changed. We now have more working computers than people in our household. I can no longer comprehend the inner workings of my computers. They have many professionally written programs and I use most of them. I have difficulty weeding out the ones I don't need because I like the way one does this and the other does that. Every once in a while a newly acquired program will cause a glitch in another program. I am faced with choosing the one to keep since I can no longer find the conflict by looking at my flow charts. Even if I could, I would not understand the language they are written in.
My logical nature which makes me a big Sudoku fan, still takes control and makes me wrestle with a problem for days until it is solved or I give up. The other day I decided I wanted to network some of my files on all of my computers. I would get one set up, but not the other. Then, all of a sudden, one of the programs would no longer work. I tweaked, poked and deleted for many hours. Did I mention I am stubborn? Finally, by late last night I no longer had to put a picture on a flash drive and carry it down stairs to photoshop it. I could view my recorded TV programs on any computer. Most of all, everything worked! I went peacefully to sleep. Of course, I haven't tried it this morning just in case those computer gremlins invaded my computers again.
P.S. In which case I will probably break down and call my very talented son.
November 8, 2008
November 6, 2008
I answered, "Of course. I wake up between 1 and 3 and have trouble getting back to sleep."
(I'm not sure whether or not this is an affect of not having to get up at six A.M. since retiring.)
My friend said, "I keep thinking about my mother. I wish I had known what she was going through."
This spoke to my own sadness over my mother. My mother is still alive in a nursing home, but her mind is no longer clear. I recently delved into her life while making sense of those accumulated family photos without names and dates. I realized there was much disappointment in her life. I did not feel particularly close to my mother, even though we spent many family weekends and vacations together. Today she gives me a smile that lights up her face and says, "I love you." I am grateful even for this. I remember mostly criticism as a youngster, although I assume she must have loved me as her child. We rarely had meaningful conversations or shared our thoughts. We didn't even have real arguments.
My friend said, "If I had known maybe we could have helped."
I related a time in my mother's life when in retrospect she had said she had barely enough to get by. Although she joined us every Sunday for dinner, I had no idea.
My friend said, "It must have been a generational thing that our mother's didn't share their lives."
I am reminded of my mother, in one of her lucid moments, saying of her mother, "She didn't deserve the troubles in her life." I wasn't aware of these either. Some came to light only years after my grandmother passed away. If my mother and grandmother discussed their lives, I was not included.
********************* I GUESS IT WAS A GENERATIONAL THING ********************
November 5, 2008
November 2, 2008
October 29, 2008
The weather here yesterday was awful. The wind blew in strong gusts. The rain drummed against the windows, and we even had some snow showers. Areas further north had some accumulating snow. October is much too early for snow here. I haven't even dug up the dahlia bulbs to be stored until spring. There is a lesson in nature's unexpected turns. That scene I drove by and said I'd capture tomorrow is not the same. The rich colors are faded yellow and brown. The beauty of some moments must be captured and felt as they present themselves. Their ethereal quality makes them impossible to preserve forever except in our minds or hearts. Store up moments of beauty, really see and feel them. They change by tomorrow.